Tuesday, November 30, 2010

11.30.10 the rest of your life

the rest of your life

will you let me know
will you find it in yourself
to tell me when
i am subject to the agents of my health
find it in your work to keep me here
when your pride and power all but disappear

and i will not define the rest of your life
but i will stand by

defying the bygone and choosing to be
less like those who follow more like those who lead
for asking your insides how long will it take
before i find a cure to be perfect and pure
or we simply break

and all that's static
completely automatically
changed by the grace of your ways
that you bestow on me
with confidence foreseen
i rise for the rest of my life

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

07.20.10 this changes everything

this changes everything

someday you will know my name
i will replace all that came

before the lightbearers destroyed
our night terrors with joy
but I am not without disquiet yet
and we cannot move forward armed with regret
for all the things we never did or quite said
so this changes everything

ask me and the words will come out true
in this heartbeat i already knew

what is only ever good
i remain as if
a spectre only should
but i know what i have to lose
and so i speak to fight
without grasping excuse

Monday, June 7, 2010

06.07.10 whether he knows

whether he knows

when i don't have a lot
and i give him all i've got
and he asks me why i'd do
a foolish thing like that to prove

that i love him like the first
time i'd ever laid eyes
on a blessing and a curse

and whether he knows it or not
i'll take my chances because they're all i've got
and whether he knows what i do
i just can't hide what i know to be true

and when all the plans i've made
in the light of him just fade
and i think that i should go
but something keeps me here i know

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

05.18.10 easy to forget/hard to remember

easy to forget / hard to remember

someday we will look back
whether together or apart
perhaps not entirely with all our faculties intact
when it becomes so easy to forget
when it becomes too hard to remember

but all the good in you
that can't be denied
to the past and the people that somehow have died
the worry for nothing
and still you remind me
everyday how fragile
this heart of mine can be

some people burn so fast
others just shine like a light that will last
through the moments when i'm not sure who i am
when you say the things that no one else can

i will cease to doubt
i will cease to deny
i will be as strong as i

Monday, April 26, 2010

04.26.10 little boxes/a better son/daughter

little boxes/a better son/daughter

little boxes on the hillside
little boxes made of ticky-tacky
little boxes on the hillside
little boxes all the same
there's a green one and a pink one
and a blue one and a yellow one
and they're all made out of ticky-tacky
and they all look just the same

and the people in the houses
all go to the university
and they all get put in boxes
little boxes all the same
and there's doctors and there's lawyers
and business executives
and they're all made out of ticky-tacky
and they all look just the same

and sometimes when you're on
you're really fuckin on
and your friends they sing along
and they love you
but the lows are so extreme
that the good seems fuckin cheap
and it teases you for weeks in its absence
but you'll fight and you'll make it through
you'll fake it if you have to
and you'll show up for work with a smile
you'll be better and you'll be smarter
and more grown up and a better daughter or son
and a real good friend
and you'll be awake, you'll be alert
you'll be positive though it hurts
and you'll laugh and embrace all your friends
and you'll be a real good listener
you'll be honest, you'll be brave
you'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
you'll be happy

and the boys go into business
and marry and raise a family
and they all get put in boxes
little boxes all the same
there's a green one and a pink one
and a blue one and a yellow one
and they're all made out of ticky-tacky
and they all look just the same

(malvina reynolds & rilo kiley)

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

03.24.10 city of giants

city of giants

when i left you made it harder
harder on us both
harder on the folks who knew us well
tell me that you don't remember
how you asked me not to come back anymore

everyone is marching
to save the city of giants
falling around us
ashes to ashes we all fall down

your kindness never came easy
for that i forgive and forget
leave you to repent and regret
but never change
why you didn't try so hard to please me
and how i tried so hard
to let you go

there's nothing that tells me more
than what you say when
than when you say you're not sure

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

03.17.10 come hell or high water

come hell or high water

come hell or high water
i will keep it all together
everything i do i will do better
and everything i make will not fail

and i will live like I'm dying
and die when I'm ready to go
and we will love like we're trying
to be something so apropos

and all these separate consciences
won't ever know me
ever know you
but seek I try only to keep
what few ever find
and all ache to have

Thursday, March 4, 2010

03.04.10 the difference between

the difference between

it starts as a blow to my heart
i thought that we could drift like this
past the cities and their streets
the trash i built up just to keep
myself and everybody else just like me

i don't know the difference between
the words that we say
and the ones that we mean
we can stay until everyone's home
i like you with them
but i want you alone

somehow things always go wrong
until they go right
and we get along
i fight to break down the door
that you walked right through
like no one before

Saturday, February 27, 2010

02.27.10 i had to lie

i had to lie

i had my doubts
i couldn't shake them
i wondered how someone could take them
so far away
there was a time when i was a proud and
heartless prize to win
or to be left for those deserving

i had to lie
so still until the way i hoped just disappeared
into the way i feel about you
i let my weaknesses grow old
as if i lived to let them go

i decided once invited
i'd make an effort to be someone like you
with nothing to prove
you take a light you make it bright
i don't think about how long this time
i don't ask why

Thursday, February 25, 2010

02.25.10 i had no idea

i had no idea

if only time will tell how long you will love me
let all these hours pass as slowly
as my last breath over final words

as open and as temporarily tamed as i come
i make no mistake for leaving thoughts left in the dust
i come as quiet as i take
what i need from all that i can break

i had no idea

here i am welcome here i long
for the trials of my past to come undone
for all the false and fury found it's way away
and so each day command