02.27.10 i had to lie

i had to lie

i had my doubts i couldn't shake themi wondered how someone could take themso far awaythere was a time when i was a proud andheartless prize to winor to be left for those deserving
i had to lieso still until the way i hoped just disappearedinto the way i feel about youi let my weaknesses grow oldas if i lived to let them go
i decided once invitedi'd make an effort to be someone like youwith nothing to proveyou take a light you make it brighti don't think about how long this timei don't ask why

02.25.10 i had no idea

i had no idea

if only time will tell how long you will love me
let all these hours pass as slowly
as my last breath over final words

as open and as temporarily tamed as i come

i make no mistake for leaving thoughts left in the dust

i come as quiet as i take

what i need from all that i can break

i had no idea

here i am welcome here i long

for the trials of my past to come undone

for all the false and fury found it's way away

and so each day command