10.22.12 like a cat picks a bone

like a cat picks a bone

i will sow the palest of flowers upon your grave
and you will haunt me in my sleep over and over 

until i behave
and i will love you as long 

as spring thaws my veins
straightens my back and unravels my pain
and we will all be better for the wear and the want

oh you don't know me at all

how i can't stand the thought of shaking it off

and i'll pick myself like a cat picks a bone
out of boredom or hunger
lord knows i feel both

i figured i was good as gold 

and as rotten as i ought to be
i got a knack for holding back and keeping grudges 

that do nothing but eat away at me
and you come in waltzing wayward 

and i near lose my mind
but i got no right
to treat you unkind

i never wanted so much daylight
i never needed anyone to see
but now i'm caught up in the kindness
how could someone be so kind to me

02.15.12 killing to be bright

killing to be bright

i'm killing to be bright
i'm killing to be holy
i'm desperate for your touch
so darling won't you hold me
there is no greater truth
there is no greater glory
if everything must end then let it be
when our lives are ready to move on to the next one

this above all else
what i won't give up
what i won't imagine my days without
i could kid myself
i could be alone
but what good would that do
a life lived without you
i'd die a thousands deaths
give you my last breath
just to hear you say

there's no one else i want
there's nothing i can't do by your side
there's no one else like you

i'm dying for the light
i'm searching for the angel's share
an empire built to rise
i hope that i will find you there
with nothing else to hold and nowhere else to go
i can't believe that there could be something more
than what I see